Posted in life, thoughts, 2026

I Tried It and I Didn’t Like It

I cancelled Sirius XM in my car this past December. I don’t miss it because I have Spotify, purchased music from the old Apple iTunes (how I miss that!), and the radio.

I went through the channels and added some stations to Favorites. A little Rock, some R&B, a local Christian station, and a local conservative station.

I have been fixated on this conservative station because I honestly want to understand it. In the morning, I would hear Glen Beck; in the afternoon, it was Clay Travis and Buck Sexton, and at the end of the day, Sean Hannity.

Four men telling you all about what is wrong with the United States because of the “Lefties”, the “Radical Lefties”, “Tampon Tim,” and “Mayor Small Frey.” All four are ready to tell you revealing information, that “my gosh, I just realized this myself and I’ll tell you all about it right after this commercial.” The first commercial on the first day I listened was for a Byrna Launcher. A compact gun that can “protect you and your family” as it shoots chemical irritants….when the bad guy is too far away. WTF.

There have been many more WTF moments for me as I listened. Sometimes I made it all the way to work, but that’s because Glen Beck’s show starts at 9am, and there are 8 minutes of commercials before he comes on the air. Clay and Buck sound like friendly guys, and I know the least about them. Buck does like to remind his listeners that he was in the CIA, and he wrote a book called “Manufacturing Delusion: How the Left Uses Brainwashing, Indoctrination, and Propaganda Against You”. Wow; that’s the old “point a finger and four are pointing back at you” moment right there. I last about 2 minutes listening to Sean. As soon as he starts in on “nicknames”, I’ve move on.

You might be wondering what I would usually listen to. I was listening to Pod Save America, Tangled, and Raging Moderates until a few months ago but I stopped because I felt music was more soothing at work. The first is left, the second gives both sides and then his own, and the third is middle of the road(?). But nothing to the extent of this station.

So, finally today, I realized I’ve had enough. I tried, I really did. Maybe it was because I listened to Glen Beck before he turned a corner, and maybe because I already dislike Hannity, but there are no redeeming reasons to listen.

I changed the channel to our local Christian station and I heard someone reading the Bible. It was from Mark and Jesus calmed the waters while he and the apostles were out in the boat. It was followed by a song by Michael W. Smith. I felt at peace. I’ll be taking that other station out of my favorites tomorrow.

Edited this morning to add: That Christian station was not for me either. I know there is a station that plays contemporary christian music and I will continue to search until I find it. In the meantime, I guess I’ll stick to my iTunes music.

Posted in 2026, life

A Mantra for Monday

This morning in my dark workout room, the soothing voice of Chelsea Jackson Roberts flowed around me. “I Will Do My Best”.

10 minutes to repeat that thought to carry it with me throughout my day.

What is my best? For today it is:

  • Ignore social media not relevant to my work
  • Start with the hard things or “swallow my frog” first thing
  • Be present – which is another one of her mantras!

Being present can sometimes be more difficult than doing difficult things or ignoring social media. I look too far forward, or try to solve this problem or that before it even arises. Wasting my present time over the future.

Will I succeed? I don’t know but,

I will do my best.

Posted in 2026, life, Memories

Bad at Math

I was in third grade when I realized I was bad at Math. I made my way through adding, subtracting, simple multiplication and division, but long division tripped me up and revealed what would be a life long problem.

The complexity of carrying numbers made my head ache and I just couldn’t “see” how to do it. Especially under pressure in class!

What?! I still don’t get it

My mother spent time with me at night working on it. She would take paper headed for the trash at work and use the backs of them to make up problems for me to work on. Did it help? Perhaps, but I from that point forward I labeled myself, “Bad At Math”.

I struggled through Algebra, Geometry, and Review Math in High School. But not Accounting. Accounting had a black and white to it. It all had to add up in the end. I had two semesters of Accounting in high school and 2 in college. If my college hadn’t closed the year I graduated with my Associate’s Degree, I would have continued on for another two years to get my degree in Accounting. But, with three grades of students needing to transfer, I thought let me take my degree and go.

Now for over 25 years, I’ve worked in our remodeling business as the bookkeeper using QuickBooks. Thank Heavens, because I’m still bad at math!

Posted in 2026, Writing

On Time

My husband says “if you’re not five minutes early to an appointment, you’re late”. Mind you, he was talking about appointments with homeowners, not doctors’ appointments.

I try to live by that rule, but I’m not always successful especially when I’m getting ready to go somewhere – but it doesn’t impact the “somewhere”, only my husband who is waiting for me!

But if I’m going to a program or a class (even on Zoom), I’m going to be there and ready 15 minutes before it starts. Which leads me to last night.

Last night was the first night of a monthly program on writing. A Writers Guild. It was held in the past as I remember seeing the notices, it disappeared (covid?), and now has been resurrected. I’m very excited about it!

I arrived 10 minutes early and there were already about 10 people seated. I settled in, the teacher waited until 6:30, and then began talking about the group, introduced herself, and we began our introductions.

For the next 10 minutes, 5 or 6 people dribbled through the door. The last person walked through the door 20 minutes late.

I hope the annoyance didn’t show on my face while I was trying to pay attention! I will try and give grace to anyone arriving late next month. Perhaps they have a family or parents to take care of or a job they are clocking out of that prevents them from arriving with enough time to settle in before class.

Timeliness. How important is it to you? Does a particular situation make a difference? I’m all for 10 minutes early to class but I’ll be flying through the door of the doctor’s office on the dot because I know I’ll be waiting 15!

Posted in 2026, Business, life

Reports and More Reports

I handle the accounting and payroll for a company, which means governmental reports, and lots of them.

The quarterly ones are not so bad because at least I do them four times a year. However, there is usually a notification to change my password. 15 characters! One capital letter! One Number! One symbol but only #@& or *! You cannot use any part of your previous five passwords! Get the picture?

I can do the majority of quarterly reports through Quickbooks, but my state decided that SOME reports, you have to go through their website. Notice I said SOME.

But don’t worry, I have a checklist for every report with the website I need to process the report correctly. I’ve been doing this too long to not have step by step instructions!

Now, let’s talk about the annual reports. Once a year. I’m talking specifically about the ACA Proof of Health Insurance or 1065-B report. Wait, I stand corrected. Per the IRS it’s a “1065-B document”. This is something I have to do because we are a self-funded small business but I don’t have to do any of the “funding” like a typical self-funded group. I pay a flat monthly rate for each employee and based on the medical expenses for the year, sometimes I get money back after the year end, and sometimes I don’t. I’m fortunate that the majority of the work is done by my carrier to Mineral that sends on the reports to the IRS. I just print them and give them to my employees on the plan. The problem is, in the email Mineral sends to tell me about it, they don’t say, “go here, here and here”. No, I go to the website, to the ACA Hub, and am confronted with a list of “resources”. Do I need to upload my employees information to this excel spreadsheet? I thought I did….

After a short time of frustration, I called the Help Center. The person took all my information to pass me on to another person. That person was very helpful. “No, you don’t have to upload the information, you click here, instead of here (right next to the first “here”). I made her stay on the line until I was 95% completed. She showed me where the step by step instructions were (why wasn’t that in an email to ALL self-funded small businesses?). She told me I could take a training class and my reply was, “I do this once a year for six employees”. I was polite, I promise! Her parting words were, “all that will be left is closing out the tax year”. Hmmm, what does that mean? I go through the report, and there is “close out the tax year”. I click on it, click on finish, nothing, nothing, nothing. I go back through the step by step, oh, I have to wait until it’s accepted….

The report is done (notice I refuse to say “document), and I will have weekly notices to remind myself to go back into the report, and through the steps to get to the last bit to “close out the tax year”. I could have typed the information into a template six times, checked, printed them, and mailed them off to the IRS and my employees faster than it took me to do the report. I will print out that resource for next year.

The report isn’t due until somewhere around the end of February so I am grateful I didn’t wait until the last week to start the report!

Now, on to the 1099s and more of the same!

Posted in 2026, life

Bless the Caregivers

I have caregivers on my mind after writing about my grandmother over on It’s All About Family.

While driving home from church yesterday (maybe it was because of church?), I said a prayer for the CT Transit bus driver waiting to take a right turn with his bus at a very annoying corner. There he was on a Sunday morning, probably already out for a few hours, and who knows how many more to go.

Today, I stopped at Walmart on my way home and I saw a young man hoisting a folder up wheelchair to put in the back of his car. I looked to the interior and there was an elderly man waiting for him. Grandfather? Paying customer? Later, when leaving the store an older woman was pushing a carriage with a toddler and telling her husband with a can in his carriage to wait and she’d get the car to pick him up. Was the young child her granddaughter?

These caregivers, people taking care of family members, neighbors, or even strangers have my deepest admiration. It is not easy.

Caregiving for my mother when I was 27 was short and there was no traveling involved. Years after that was caring for my dad. It was helpful that his primary care doctor was at the assisted living facility. He was in a wheelchair and it was easier to get him up into my SUV than it was to lower him into a car! After he passed away, I took on the grocery trips and doctor’s appointments for my aunt, my dad’s sister. That started when I got a call from the school she worked. She became ill and was being taken to the hospital and I was her emergency contact! All of that involved a change to my routine, fitting something in, taking time off from work, or having my family fend for themselves while I was caregiving.

I don’t say all that for any pats on the back but I’m realizing how important it is to have “people”.

Posted in 2026, life

Cable Cutting Update

Last Friday, I wrote about how I cancelled our cable service and my husband was pretty concerned.

Last Saturday, we signed up for a free one week trial of FUBO so he could watch the NFL football games on Saturday and Sunday. That was good.

Although we have a Vizio smart tv and it has our live local news, he couldn’t watch CBS Sunday Morning live. He would be able to watch it at 11am or live from his IPad at cbsnews.com but that was not the same. He was a little sulky about it. But the live football revived him.

Here we are, another weekend, another round of football. What to do what to do. We reviewed the information I took out of my Cutting the Cord class at the library and we decided rather than trying to do a patchwork of streaming channels, we’d just go with Hulu Live TV because they do carry all the major networks.

I’m grateful that it’s so easy to sign up. If I had to talk to people to set it up, we’d be installing an antenna on our roof.

Our UConn men’s basketball game is on the tv now and all’s right with the world!

Posted in 2026, thoughts

Keep It Simple

On my other blog, It’s All About Family, I’m once again following Amy Crow Johnson’s 52 Ancestors in 52 Weeks.

I was successful with Week 1 but am already a week behind because I struggle with trying to just tell the story of the prompt. I feel like I need to fill the reader in on the backstory before I get to the topic at hand.

A beginning sentence will pop into my head as I’m doing something else and I try to keep it there until I type it but then it doesn’t sound right. So I think about it some more. I might have an entire post typed up, but then I second guess myself. In fact, I have two posts in drafts for this one subject!

My library has a Writing Guild which is starting back this month after a hiatus and it’s in my calendar. My hope is to get some guidance in my writing of those posts.

Posted in 2026, Dreams

Commitment and Change

I have lived a life of problems with change and commitment. Changing jobs, breaking up with obviously terrible boyfriends. I guess once I was committed, it was hard to change because I hate change. So, fast forward….

Our dear Wally, a chihuahua/terrier mix, passed away last March at the age of about 15. His last year was not filled with vets and illness, but just a slow decline where you know he won’t get better, but those good days, you prayed they would continue. My friend, who communicates with animals, told me both before and after Wally passed, that he knew he was loved and he’s coming back. Probably around this time of year, in the form of a tan chihuahua. Laugh all you want, I believe it!

My son and daughter-in-law were over on Sunday for dinner, and she suddenly started sending me links to dogs! My brother-in-law out of the clear blue sky, sent me one too! I contacted the agencies on both, but liked the sound of the second, Missy, history better. So I got my husband on board, and sent in an application, spoke with the rescue coordinator, and went to bed. And Dreamed.

I dreamed I had rsvp’d to go to Kyle Richards’ wedding in California! But I had just been IN California, and didn’t want to fly back. But they were waiting for me! They had a dress for me! “You need to take responsibility”, someone said. Next, I see in my dream, a baby I’m supposed to be taking care of! Whose baby? Not mine – I’m 65! Who is taking care of them?

Ugh – change and commitment! Do we want another dog? We like to come and go as we please, but is it because Wally was so incapacitated towards the end and couldn’t go to my brother-in-law’s kennel? Should we think back and watch the videos of when Wally first arrived and how we’d play with him? Is a dog what our home needs? Someone else for the two of us to think about and care about?

I don’t know the answer, but I found out this morning that Missy, the dog we were interested in, has an adoption pending. Did the fates answer the question “Are we ready for another?” by giving her to someone else? My friend said our next dog will come to us when we’re not looking, so I think I will put aside the pet rescue websites and be patient.

Another part of my dream involved riding my e-bike. In two separate instances, I put the bike down, tucked it away, and when I returned, it was gone. Both times Pete Hegseth had walked by. Did he steal both of them? I’ll never know. I woke up.

Posted in 2026, Healthy Living, life

A Different Lens

As I rounded the corner this morning

I’ve been starting my morning workout with a 5 minute Peloton meditation. My favorite instructor is Chelsea Jackson Roberts. Her voice is so calming.

Some days she has a mantra and today’s was “Today I choose the lens of love in how I treat myself and how I treat others.”

I carried that with me forcing myself to not beat myself up for doing a low impact cardio right after a lower body workout! Should have done a core workout!

I will focus on carrying it with me through my day. Some days I get in the office and all thoughts of kindness and goodness fly right out of my head. I need to remember that we all come from different “places”. How we were raised, how we were taught, even how our last boss or ex-husband treated us. We’re just all here trying to do the best we can.